7 March 2007

To know thy Self, to thy own Self be true

That title is taken from the Holy Spirits interpretation of the book of James in the New Testament, as documented by Regina Dawn Akers on her site www.forholyspirit.org. Tonight I asked to be guided to a page on her site that would help me in prayer. As I read the book of James the quote given stood out as though written in huge letters! I felt moved to write a post documenting my response to the reading of the book of James (which talks a lot about desire) and in particular that statement...

To be true to my Self is to follow my true desire. My true desire is to know my Self As I Am. This involves knowing my Self as I was created. As I am not the author of my Self it is not for me to decide the outcome of this desire. My only task then is to be aware of this desire. To allow this desire to surface, to be acknowleged and to really embrace this desire so that it fills all awareness. As I allow this desire to surface I feel a strength born of humility coming to the foreground.

Father, speak to me of the Truth of my creation
For I have longed for this moment ever since the idea of time was born

I am your humble servant
Let the entire foundation of my thought be built upon Your Loving Presence

May my willingness serve to glorify All that You are
That Your Word might find expression through me

I am That which you extend through me
You are my One Parent
I am your One Child

Speak to me Father of the day of my creation
I would hear the words You would speak
Only You know the Truth of my being

As I lift up my eyes
to gaze upon Your Loving Countenance
I am open to receive Your Word

I would have ears to hear
That I might know the Truth
For that is my One desire

Amen

2 March 2007

When the rains come, the streams rise and the winds blow...

I am grateful that the physical arena can mirror thoughts that need to be exposed and released. Through looking at physical ‘symptoms’ I am able to uncover what beliefs I must mistakenly be holding.

For example:
Over the last two days I appear to have been experiencing a sense of ‘strain’ in my upper left arm. In the first instance I dismissed it as such a ‘mild’ sensation that it did not warrant a closer look. I had the thought that it was bound to disappear as quickly as it came. I could not identify when the feeling first arose and so it was not linked with any particular event in my mind.

It was not until a day and a half later that I bothered to pay any more attention to the sensation and this time the thought was more like “oh, so you’ve not gone away yet then- perhaps there is something wrong.” It was only at this point that I tried to identify the sensation more precisely. Once I ‘bothered’ to do this it was quite clear to me that if I had to describe it then I would use the word strain. Having identified the sensation I was able to reframe my experience.

“I choose to state that there is no strain involved in being the reflection of my Creator. My prayer is one of thankfulness for the ease of the existence given me by Love. Love denies nothing to its extension therefore ease is in my nature.”

Any appearance or sensation from the physical universe that would appear to contradict this experience of ease is merely an attempt to convince that there is another source of creation. I do not believe this to be true. Love is All. In this way the apparent experience of ‘strain’ in a muscle is merely an opportunity to allow the thought of strain to surface and be looked upon without fear, safe in the knowledge that it has no foundation in truth.

Another thing I am learning from this experience is that even the smallest apparently insignificant twinge is untrue and to be released to the light. To decide that it is too minor to be addressed is to allow the thought that something unlike Love can make its home in Love’s abode. This cannot be true and so on one level to accept a ‘minor’ ache is no different to accepting, for example, a broken bone; they are equally without solid foundation.

While the sensation of strain still presents itself I am grateful for the opportunity to reaffirm that which I hold to be true. As I affirm this truth I come more into alignment with the source of All inspired thought. I am grateful for this opportunity to experience a sensation that is the result of a mistaken thought and whilst doing so reaffirm my commitment to build my house “on the rock.”

Matthew 7:25-27 (New International Version)
(25)The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. (26)But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. (27)The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash."