Reading the latest post on www.reginadawnakers.com 'What Knowing knows' there is a strong sensation occuring. As I read about the dust and the furniture something stirs within. I begin to look upon thoughts that have been arising over the last few days. As I see apparent desires for specific outcomes in the world arising in the mind, up pops the idea that these thoughts are dangerous. It might not turn out how I want and then I won't be happy, for example. There is the thought that I'm better off not looking too closely at what it is that I want. There is a feeling of guilt arising that such desires are present. I see a few of these desires connected to various situations in the world and then I get a very clear sensation that there is yet something stronger than the attraction to all of these. As I look upon desires for specific outcomes I begin to sense the transparency of these desires. These desires are the dust, the surface layer. I lose all sense of needing to be worried about these desires for specific outcomes. I connect with a great sense of Trust. I am completely willing to place my trust in the Holy Spirit. I trust that He will lead me where I want to be, I trust that His purpose is present in All that I seem to experience. This Trust is undoubtedly stronger than any of the apparent desires for specific outcomes that were previously seen as an excuse for guilt. I feel the strength of this Trust and all doubts are gone. The thoughts connected to specific outcomes in the world arise again and I look upon them, accepting their presence in the mind but seeing that they have no power. Seeing the lack of power in these thoughts there is an awareness that Desire is yet present and yet the guilt is gone. The desire for specific outcomes is merely a filter over my True Desire. The desire to know my Self As I Am is ever present and to connect with it is to give up all pretence that I could ever choose anything else. How crazy to be afraid that I might really prefer to choose a specific outcome over This! A feeling of immense joy arises. I need never be afraid to look more closely. I need only be willing to ask for His Vision. To follow the desire of the heart is to be immersed in the song of joy. Desire without guilt! As the mind rests in this knowledge such gratitude arises that the heart is overflowing with it. What joy that this is the truth of my Self. This is all I could ever want...
What joy that the song of gratitude is never left unsung!
In all moments the song is being sung and as I have ears to hear I realise that this song is all there is. The song is my Self, the truth of my Self. What untempered joy is this? It is but the Truth about my Self. It is the desire of the heart to sing this song and so it IS ever sung. As awareness joins with the music of the song the heart lifts up, expands, dissolves into the existence of the song. This music is that which was forgotten and yet it never ceased to be sung.
To hear the song is to know my Self as I am and to feel the unfolding and unending joy of gratitude for our One Mind. To know, to feel the strength of our willingness is to sing this song over and over, this desire is foundational, nothing is stronger.
Resting in the music the heart is whole, no desire is left unfulfilled, this is All, there is nothing else to be done.
Praise be that the song is never left unsung!
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