Humility

I am willing to see All events as opportunities to learn about mySelf.

Today I responded as though it were not in my best interests to get no response from my email to B____. As I walked home there was enough space in the mind for the thought that *I don't know what is in my best interests* to be heard. After this sunk in I became humble enough to remember that I have no idea what thoughts need healing in the mind. I remembered that I choose to place my trust in OneMind, not in the thoughts of Esther. I trust our OneMind to bring exactly those thoughts that need looking at with the Light to the surface. In this way I can see B____ as an agent of OneMind acting to help this mind find those thoughts that need to be seen with willingness.

So these were the thoughts arising:
I want to share my experience with B____, to tell him about what happened over easter.
I want B____ to respond to my request to meet up with him.
B____ should respond to my request to meet.

1) Is it true that he should?
The reality is that he hasn't responded, so no it can't be true.

3) How do I react when I believe he should respond and he doesn't?
I imagine reasons why he doesn't respond. I see us meeting and me being unable to be 'natural' around him. I see me being suspicious around him. I see me pushing him away. I see me putting distance between us. I see me being unable to make any request of him again. I see me waiting for him to contact me. I see me unable to express what I wanted to express.

4) How would it be if the thought could not enter my mind that he should respond?
I would be open to guidance. Anything would be a possibility. I would be free to respond to any ideas that came up. I would be open-minded as to the next course of action.

B____ shouldn't respond to my request to meet.

*He shouldn't respond as the Holy Spirit can teach me about the true nature of mySelf through the experience of him not responding.

*He shouldn't respond as that alerts me to the temptation of choosing my response from the viewpoint of the personality.

*He shouldn't respond as it gives me the opportunity to reaffirm yet again the commitment made in OneMind to let go of all obstacles to Love's presence.

*He shouldn't respond, as this has re-awakened the presence of humility within.

*B____ shouldn't respond to E____'s request. OneMind is willing to see THIS as evidence of the Reality of limitless LOVE.

I am grateful that I can trust my teacher to show me all that needs to be seen in the healing Light of forgiveness. I stand humble in the presence of Love acting within my life. I am willing to accept that I have been wrong about Love, about my brother and that I need to be taught anew. Holy Spirit I accept Your guidance, Your presence in my life and I humbly acknowledge that only You know what needs to be seen, to be brought to the Light. I trust that All events, All circumstances and All relationships are guided by You. I am willing to see All through your eyes. I know not what is in my best interests.

I trust that You will show me.

Love IS

I am willing

I see only to accept and not to judge

In thanks

Esther