More reflections about sleep

Yesterday I found my mind wondering what I was going to learn about when waking up this morning. I also noticed some fear that the experience I have been having recently might stop happening. When I looked more closely at what was meant by 'stop happening' I realised that even if my experience of the body waking in the morning changed once more it would not mean that the Holy Spirit had 'left' me! It served to remind me just how important mind watching is.

I notice the thought and realise that it is not a reflection of my true identity. It is not that anything has to happen to the thought "I'm afraid that Holy Spirit might leave me" it is just to see that the 'me' who thinks that thought is not my true identity. Once I realise that, I remember with gratitude that Holy Spirit cannot fail to enter where invited and that it takes only willingness and invitation for His Voice to be present. I then make once again the decision to learn what He would teach. Holy Spirit I know that Your Gifts are all that I desire. I am willing to learn what You would teach. The thought which states that experience is at the mercy of an 'outside' force is simply not true.

This morning as the body went through the process of awakening from sleep confusion was present. After allowing this and embracing it a new realisation dawned. When the thought arises- 'I want to go back to sleep' -it stems from a real desire, which is to Let Go. This was a wonderful realisation as it brought with it an experience of certainty. Here was desire without guilt! There is a desire to let go and this is not an attempt to escape responsibility, it is not an escape from something which cannot be faced, it is not something of which to be ashamed. As I acknowledge the desire to let go I release the wish to be anything other that That which I Am, and this is a blessed experience. The body then, is released from it's false position as originator of experience (the body is tired I must go back to sleep) and once again becomes a learning device reflecting the thoughts held in One Mind (I desire to let go of false identification and to rest in God.)

I offer my gratitude for the Gift given of God, the Voice which reminds us of the Love we are. TRULY I desire only the Gifts that You have to offer.