Thankfulness

I’d just like to give you the background to recent events which led to my having the phone session with DavidPaul described in the post below, as the whole sequence has been the start of a new cycle for me…

I subscribe to several different foundations every month and recently these subscriptions came up for renewal as my debit card went past its expiry date. Without much thought I went to paypal and updated my details thinking that would allow the payments to continue. This was the case for two of them, but one payment (for the Voice for Love website run by DavidPaul and Candace Doyle) was not actually through paypal, but through the individual website. I got more than one or two emails from the site to let me know that the card had expired and giving me a link to update my information but I put the message on hold and didn’t update the information.

Choosing to be a member of this site had given me access to weekly and monthly materials that simply arrived in my inbox, and I could listen to the messages or download them with one easy click. Without being particularly aware of it I had got into the habit (as a result of thoughts such as “I’m too busy to download it, I’ve got plenty to listen to already etc) of deleting these messages before even listening to them! This train of thought, which was going in a particular direction, led to questioning whether it was worth renewing the subscription. I was delaying making a decision on this matter, although I had no idea when I might decide one way or the other.

What happened next is that I got a message on my mobile from DavidPaul just to say Hi and to let me know that the card had expired. Finally I sat up and took notice- here was an opportunity! This was a chance to look again at something that I had acknowledged as being connected to the Truth, and yet to which I had stopped paying attention. There was something about getting a message directly from DavidPaul that caught my notice. It was like an invitation to join and I acted upon it directly! This was the moment when I was no longer in any doubt as to whether to renew the subscription or not. I immediately renewed and the same day took the Doyles book “the Journey that never was” off the shelf and started to re-read it.

It is wonderful when something happens which leaves one in no doubt as to the right- minded response! I also chose to open A Course In Miracles, for the first time in a while, and one of the first things I read was:

“I said before that forgetting is merely a way of remembering better. It is therefore not the opposite of remembering when it is properly perceived. Perceived improperly, it induces a perception of conflict with something else, as all incorrect perception does. Properly perceived, it can be used as a way out of conflict, as all proper perception can.” T7 IV 2:7-10

I realised then that this was indeed an opportunity. I could choose to see this moment as a way of remembering better what it is that I want. I could choose to use this moment to reconnect to my desire for Truth and Love. All this was truly being offered me in the moment. It was a joyful experience to reconnect with the desire within.
DavidPaul mentioned the possibility of talking on the phone and I saw this as another opportunity, which I had heretofore ignored or overlooked. Not this time! I was prepared to allow the possibility that this might hold more gifts of learning and Love.

We spoke on the phone and I felt guided to book a session with him where I could ask questions directly to the Holy Spirit. This turned out to be another wonderful opportunity and brought to light many useful ideas, thoughts and ways of looking at things. When DavidPaul sent me a copy of the recording I felt guided to make a transcription of it as another way of absorbing the ideas. This was very useful to me, and I later asked him if it was ok to share it on the blog. I understand that the thoughts shared were extremely useful to me as they spoke directly to where I was in the moment, but I thought it would be great to share the words so that there is the opportunity for others to hear them too.

I would like to thank both DavidPaul and Candace for their commitment to sharing the presence of Love, and the Journey with so many others. Truly, we call to each other as we allow the Light to shine brightly.

It is of no consequence that I was not listening to the messages for a while, what is of consequence is that I choose to listen now. What matters is that I am ready to bring any darkness that is uncovered to the light. I am able to notice judgments that the darkness is useless and should be ignored or pushed away and simply choose again. This was, I feel, a strong message that came through as a result of the session. I choose to allow the possibility of linking together what I know to be True (Oneness, Love, Abstraction) and those ideas/feelings/thoughts/situations/events which appear to be far from the Truth. It is not necessary for me to judge any of those things that fall into the second category above. In contrast, it IS possible to allow any of those things to be and to know that the Truth is STILL true. This seems like a missing pin, which I had failed to acknowledge in a real practical everyday sense before.

I now feel that I am ready to allow more of those thoughts/ideas/beliefs/feelings that appear to be far from the truth to be flushed up in order that I can let this process of undoing begin. It seems quite challenging at times, for there is often fear of allowing the darkness ‘full reign.’ A sense that it is quite proper to label a certain behaviour as unreasonable “If I was thinking in my right mind I obviously wouldn’t feel like that/ would be able to react differently.” I understand that gentleness and compassion are central to this path and it is with great willingness that I undertake to learn the lessons of Love.

With thanks to All
To sing the song of joy

Esther.